Unrequited Love

My phone blurted the usual bird-chirp sound. I  knew instantly that she had replied my whatsapp message. I sent her a message last night, waited frantically, with the hairs on my back doing the usual nervy azonto dance. Blood rushed though my face, my palms grew wet and cold and my Ralph Lauren could not soak my sweat enough when i saw those two blue ticks. A 'yes' would make me the happiest man on earth, a 'no' would make me the heart-broken poor boy who would sob his life away. It would take me months to search and put my life together from the heap of rubble it would have become. I fell asleep in my wait.

I met her on a beautiful Friday morning. My wallet could only sneeze up dust when i required some notes so i had to get my ATM card into an unusually active mode. The nearest ATM machine was on campus and since i could not even hear the sound of a coin from miles away, i had to do a Haille Gabriel Selassie.

 

Haile Gabriel Selassie at Beijing 2008

It was destined to be my lucky day enough to crown my walk-sprint. She was beautifully clad in a tight blue jeans with a pair of slippers. Her natural was held back with a ribbon and her light skin beamed to the rays of the sun( Disclaimer: there was no evidence of bleaching). She was indeed a gem of rare beauty. I doubled my strides and caught up with her, introduced myself and struck a conversation. We had a long chat amid my humorous one-liners( it's a necessary ingredient). I escorted her to her abode and almost forgot the reason for my long morning trip. My brain was so upbeat, in sync with the heart that it could easily interpret a Morse code from the heart but not a siren from the stomach. When it stung like a bee, i felt i was hungry.

We spoke on phone for almost two months coupled with my regular visits and our regular visits and our attendance to a number of programs on campus( sometimes u have to pay, u barb?). The feeling grew and i felt it was mutual. Once a while, a gift would move from my end to hers. I would not even talk about what i did for her on her birthday( in case my mum chances on this blog). Long story short, a young man had fallen in love with one of the daughters of Eve but the courage to say, he lacked( hw3, it is not easy oo). I therefore took solace in my whatsapp which could shield me from those piercingly beautiful eyes of my crush. Beautifully crafted, i sent her a message even Shakespeare would envy.

Now i feel tossed into a garbage bin, rejected by scavengers, trampled upon by stray dogs and snouted by pigs. My pride and ego stripped off me by shame and rejection. I felt humiliated, unloved. She didnt just send a no. She put it words she thought would hurt the least. "I'm sorry. I never knew how you felt. I only see and love you as a brother and that you"ll always be."     Unrequited Love!!!

 

The pain i felt brought me back to reality. Many of us treat the love of God as a stroll in the park. A leisurely relationship you can cope with. ' For God so loved the world, that He gave us His only begotten Son that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life'. What greater love than this!!! I f we were created in the image of God then He must be in a much greater pain when the people He created choose to treat His infinite love with disdain. He showers us with love, life, growth, family, friends,career and protection but everything goes down the drain when we repay with malice,disobedience, disregard for the Word of God, an ungrateful heart and a heart that veers from His marvelous light into utter darkness, the path of sin.It is not enough to go to church on Sunday or have ' Christian' on your facebook profile. Lets go beyond the vain mention of His Holy name. Christ didn't die for that!! Develop a relationship with Him. Know Him for yourself, beyond the Jesus your pastor preaches. He seeks a closer relationship. Open up, take a walk, hand in hand, with Jesus Christ. That will be the ultimate blossom of a love story.

 PS: Please post your comments at the comment section so i know what you feel. And for those who want to know how i'm feeling, well, i'm great fine recuperating now.